[Sorry sorry sorry… I didn’t intend to make a short story out of this post initially, but it just sorta happened. >.< tl;dr: Imazi puts away her things, has something of a panic attack, then gets her head on straight as she settles in.]
______________________________Settling in
Having put most of her things away in the compartments set aside for her use, Imazi quickly took mental inventory to ensure that she had forgotten nothing since there would be no turning around to retrieve anything on this dangerous and serious mission. She confirmed the presence of the essential items and the items for the mission, but she stopped to focus on the few items she had brought along for her comfort.
Across the bed lay several darkened datapads containing scholarly articles and commentaries on various archaeological topics for Imazi’s later reading and entertainment, and on a little nightstand near the bed sat a lone droid arm of archaic design alongside two smooth, rounded stones. A week-long, covert trip into imperial space loomed ahead of the small group of Jedi sent to investigate the mysterious and destructive incident on Ziost, and during that week, Imazi knew she would need to keep her mind both occupied and focused for which purpose these last items were brought along.
Running her hand slowly over one of the smooth stones she that she used during meditating, she thought about what she saw on the live feed from Ziost. The loss of life had been catastrophic and the deadened feeling through the force overwhelming. Whatever, exactly, they were heading towards now was a deadly force of cataclysmic proportions, and they were walking into it blind. Subconsciously, Imazi slid her hand around her waist to brace herself as the sickened feeling she had had at the Jedi Custodum Enclave during the live feed returned.
As she attempted to cope, the young, Human Jedi sat on the bed to prevent from falling while the wave of nausea increased. She reeled as thoughts of what lay ahead of them began to haunt her. True, she did not know the exact details of what was happening on Ziost, but she did know one very important detail. The source of the event, whatever its true nature, had been the Emperor... THE Emperor.
Imazi gave up on attempting to sit as the nausea grew, and she laid over on the bed, curled up in a ball, as she fought to resist the fear and the sickness. She had long known that the path of a Jedi was a dangerous one, and she had heard many stories of Jedi who had died during their assignments, but this was the first time that she was forced to fully confront the possibility that it may finally be her time to join the ranks of those now one with the Force.
Desperately, she tried to recall her training and remind herself that there was no death, there was only the Force. But, in the face of a potential showdown with THE Emperor of the Sith Empire, the words rang hollow. For many minutes, she wrangled with the fear, alternating between wanting to do her duty as a jedi and wanting to return home, but gradually she came to think more and more of the people she would be letting down if she did.
The people who died initially on Ziost could not be helped, they were already gone, but there were others. Those who lost loved ones and maybe even those who would lose further loved ones if the Jedi did not find a way to stop the Emperor or at least find out what he was doing. While she had no particular regard for Imperials in general, she did acknowledge that they were people like any other, and a jedi had the responsibility to protect whoever they could. Then came the realization that failure to stop the Emperor would likely result in expansion, expansion that could easily engulf the Republic if left unchecked.
Now, duty had something firm to latch onto, and it began to fight back against the fear. “There is no death; there is only the Force” may have rung hollow to her at that moment, but “lives are at stake” did not. Slowly, she uncurled from her ball as her sense of duty took over, and she reinforced one thought in her mind, “I will not let these people down. Not this time…” She closed her eyes as she laid on her bed, and she began to meditate to center herself.
This time, she would not let her insecurities or fears interfere. This time she would succeed, and this time, she would not let people down. Having once again regained control over her emotions, Imazi sat up and she took a deep breath. Despite the tenseness of the situation and the seriousness of it, she had a week to fully come to terms with what she had volunteered for. But, for now, she needed to get settled for the week ahead.
With that thought, she remembered the rest of the preparations she intended to make, and she set about making them. Quietly, she moved about the room as she prepared for departure, and idly she wondered when the droids would be preparing a meal. Now that the nausea was subsiding, she was beginning to grow hungry.